what makes you different makes you beautiful

the internal battle i’ve been having for the past.. probably month now, i want to say, is the question:

do i try to be productive, or do i slack off and just not do it now?

more often than not, it’s the latter that i go with, as guilty as i do feel about that. i figured, hey, i’m going to israel in 35 days, who cares anymore. all i can seem focused on is just getting my bags packed, and getting on that plane, and getting out of here for a month. i can’t WAIT. i mean, i’m not one of those people who’s like “EWW, i hate east meadow, eww…” because i love east meadow, and i like my school alot. it may not be a “utopia” like my english teacher says it is, but it’s a nice place to live.

but- i am looking forward to a change of scenery. i’ve actually never left north america before. i’ve been to canada, but never have i crossed an ocean.

and i can’t wait to do it. especially israel. and with my camp friends? it really can’t get any better than that.

the second part of this blog does NOT tie into the first part at all, i was just too lazy to post two seperate text posts on my thoughts on the day before i go to bed.

you know what completely bugs me?

un-neccessary drama.

it’s all just hooplah that doesn’t need to be there, and like those people who are just HUNGRY to start a fight…like why. are you bored? because, if you’re bored, you can go..paint your toenails a funky color, learn to knit, listen to your iPod… anything.. not start fights with people out of boredom. like, come on, really. just that inmaturity and ignorance bugs me so much.

get real, people. if you’ve ever started a fight with someone for a stupid reason, and you haven’t just patched things up yet, maybe that would be a wise decision.

anyway, i grow weary. goodnight all :).